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[Thursday
June 15th, 2006 at 10:43am] |
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Whats more fun then 3am rides to the mall,
playing in the malls fake grass,
cuddling in the car,
first kisses,
being 'married',
and lemons?
nothing. :)
you are amazing & i love you.
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[Thursday
June 1st, 2006 at 10:25pm] |
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Happieness is such hard work and it gets harder everyday...
I miss my steven. New boyfriend, Seth. hes is AMAZING. he makes me feel so pretty and comfortable. im getting happy and people can tell. summer is amazing. I love the sun and the happieness it brings. no school, no drama, no stress. Just those amazing 3 am. sneak-outs, getting drunk and being stupid with friends, going to shows and writeing on the street with chalk at 5 am with your best friends. and spending lots of time with your boyfriend, of course.
ahh, life is wonderful sometimes. only _*he could make it better. and that will happen all in good time. gyroscope, ilovethissong! haha. well i`ll finish this now..
Goodbye, WI. Hello, RCB!!
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[Thursday
June 1st, 2006 at 10:07am] |
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"Welcome Home""-Coheed and Cambria
You could've been all I wanted
But you weren't honest
Now get in the ground
You choked off the surest of favors
But if you really loved me
You would've endured my world
Well you're just as I presumed
A whore in sheep's clothing
Fucking up all I do
And if so here we stop
Then never again
Will you see this in your life
Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here laid to rest is our love ever longed
With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs
You stormed off to scar the armada
Like Jesus played letter,
I'll drill through your hands
The stone for the curse you have blamed me
With love and devotion, I'll die as you sleep
But if you could just write me out
To neverless wonder... happy will I become
Be true that this is no option,
So with sin I condemn you
Demon play, demon out!
Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here laid to rest is our love ever longed
With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs
One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl...
I'd do anything for you
One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl...
Before I hope you die
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[Wednesday
April 19th, 2006 at 12:24am] |
I saw Steven again today.
It was so.
My heart is broken. I miss him so much, I fought with Joe, I want to die. Life isn`t even worth it if it weren`t for the people who need me, i would kill myself. Kayla (Wesse) makes me feel good. She says I`m beautiful. and She is perfect. I love herrr! She makes me smile and I can tell her anything. She is very pretty. She`s like a little pixie. <3
He looks so happy with her. but i know its fake. but it hurts. I miss you..
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[Saturday
April 15th, 2006 at 10:27am] |
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I Miss him..
I tried to call him last night around 3:40 am.
No answer, as always. Her might call me today, if he did, i`d break down and cry out of pure happieness..
I think I`m going to write a new story, based in a few more years, Steven`s POV, in our Califorina garderen that we`ll never have.. God, I miss his smile.. seeing him again killed me.. his eyes are dead now. He NEEDS me and I need him. I have to soothe him and make him happy or i feel like shit. Though I must admit, Joe is growing on me, hes not Steven. He`s not the boy who saved me, he hasn`t been around through many of my emo monents. His arms don`t hold me the right way, i miss Steven`s barely-more-then-paper-thin arms wraped around me. THAT is where I feel safe. I let him take a piece of me. Maybe I can love enough boys that I`ll be left with nothing and be really apathic. 'Here I am expeting just a little to much from the wounded..'
No one could compre to Steven. He`s my soul keeper. He can look at me and know exactly what I feel. Steven`s the only boy who ever ment anything real to me.
People are always telling me 'your to pretty for him', and I really don`t think so. He`s so beautiful. He`s my hight, thin thin thin, smooth, his lips are so cute, and he has _*beautiful eyes.. I wish he were still mine.. He has my heart. I know his rules were just a faulse, he just didn`t want to lose me..I know he`ll come back,it`s just hard to wait. I don`t want to ask him why, because He`s not telling me the answers because he knows it will hurt me.
I am a skeleton before him, nothing held back and nothing held in. I could tell him anything and premeditate his respons. I feel safe with him. He truely is my window, and getting to that sill is harder then ever. Love is only real for people who have it. It`s all part of the chain of life, Were born, we grow, we fall in love, were hurt by love, we spwan more life, then we die. Death isn`t to be feared. Embrace it and the struggle will be easier, death can`t be helped, it will happen, so just let it.
anyway,I have to go clean, so I`1l up-date more later.
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[Saturday
April 15th, 2006 at 1:33am] |
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What is Dependent Personality Disorder?
Quick Summary:
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. Dependents often remain in abusive relationships. Over-sensitivity to disapproval is common. Dependents often feel helpless and depressed.
Symptoms of Dependent Personality Disorder:
Difficulty making decisions
Feelings of helplessness when alone
Suicidal thoughts upon rejection
Submissiveness
Deeply hurt by mild criticism or disapproval
Unable to meet ordinary demands of life
Okayyy, the computer just owned me.
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[Friday
April 14th, 2006 at 5:37pm] |
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This is my first post.
I`ll mostly be emo ranting/writing songs or stories in here..
so come back later and I`ll have some fun stuff for you to look at.
;0)
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