urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx barely_fazedx barely_fazedx 2006-06-15T15:10:53Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx:2252 2006-06-15T15:10:53Z 2006-06-15T15:10:53Z Don`t go away-Oasis Whats more fun then 3am rides to the mall,<br />playing in the malls fake grass,<br />cuddling in the car,<br />first kisses,<br />being 'married',<br />and lemons?<br /><br /><br />nothing. :)<br /><br /><br /><br />you are amazing & i love you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx:1953 2006-06-02T02:34:57Z 2006-06-02T02:34:57Z gyroscope-dismemberment plan Happieness is such hard work and it gets harder everyday...<br /><br /><br />I miss my steven. New boyfriend, Seth. hes is AMAZING. he makes me feel so pretty and comfortable. im getting happy and people can tell. summer is amazing. I love the sun and the happieness it brings. no school, no drama, no stress. Just those amazing 3 am. sneak-outs, getting drunk and being stupid with friends, going to shows and writeing on the street with chalk at 5 am with your best friends. and spending lots of time with your boyfriend, of course.<br />ahh, life is wonderful sometimes. only _*he could make it better. and that will happen all in good time. gyroscope, ilovethissong! haha. well i`ll finish this now..<br /><br /><br /><br />Goodbye, WI. Hello, RCB!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx:1589 2006-06-01T14:17:56Z 2006-06-01T14:17:56Z Welcome Home-Coheed and Cambria "Welcome Home""-Coheed and Cambria<br /><br /><br />You could've been all I wanted<br />But you weren't honest<br />Now get in the ground<br />You choked off the surest of favors<br />But if you really loved me<br />You would've endured my world<br /><br />Well you're just as I presumed<br />A whore in sheep's clothing<br />Fucking up all I do<br />And if so here we stop<br />Then never again<br />Will you see this in your life<br /><br />Hang on to the glory at my right hand<br />Here laid to rest is our love ever longed<br />With truth on the shores of compassion<br />You seem to take premise to all of these songs<br /><br />You stormed off to scar the armada<br />Like Jesus played letter,<br />I'll drill through your hands<br />The stone for the curse you have blamed me<br />With love and devotion, I'll die as you sleep<br />But if you could just write me out<br />To neverless wonder... happy will I become<br />Be true that this is no option,<br />So with sin I condemn you<br />Demon play, demon out!<br /><br />Hang on to the glory at my right hand<br />Here laid to rest is our love ever longed<br />With truth on the shores of compassion<br />You seem to take premise to all of these songs<br /><br />One last kiss for you<br />One more wish to you<br />Please make up your mind girl...<br />I'd do anything for you<br />One last kiss for you<br />One more wish to you<br />Please make up your mind girl...<br />Before I hope you die urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx:1438 2006-04-19T17:10:50Z 2006-04-19T17:10:50Z Does your face hurt? - Amazing Transparent Man I miss him,<br />fuck this feeling.<br /><br /><br />&lt;/3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx:1259 2006-04-19T04:30:22Z 2006-04-19T04:30:22Z I saw Steven again today.<br /><br />It was so.<br /><br />My heart is broken. I miss him so much, I fought with Joe, I want to die. Life isn`t even worth it if it weren`t for the people who need me, i would kill myself. Kayla (Wesse) makes me feel good. She says I`m beautiful. and She is perfect. I love herrr! She makes me smile and I can tell her anything. She is very pretty. She`s like a little pixie. &lt;3<br />He looks so happy with her. but i know its fake. but it hurts. I miss you.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx:977 2006-04-15T14:50:13Z 2006-04-15T14:50:13Z 3 libras - APC I Miss him..<br /><br /><br />I tried to call him last night around 3:40 am.<br /><br />No answer, as always. Her might call me today, if he did, i`d break down and cry out of pure happieness..<br /><br />I think I`m going to write a new story, based in a few more years, Steven`s POV, in our Califorina garderen that we`ll never have.. God, I miss his smile.. seeing him again killed me.. his eyes are dead now. He NEEDS me and I need him. I have to soothe him and make him happy or i feel like shit. Though I must admit, Joe is growing on me, hes not Steven. He`s not the boy who saved me, he hasn`t been around through many of my emo monents. His arms don`t hold me the right way, i miss Steven`s barely-more-then-paper-thin arms wraped around me. THAT is where I feel safe. I let him take a piece of me. Maybe I can love enough boys that I`ll be left with nothing and be really apathic. 'Here I am expeting just a little to much from the wounded..'<br />No one could compre to Steven. He`s my soul keeper. He can look at me and know exactly what I feel. Steven`s the only boy who ever ment anything real to me.<br />People are always telling me 'your to pretty for him', and I really don`t think so. He`s so beautiful. He`s my hight, thin thin thin, smooth, his lips are so cute, and he has _*beautiful eyes.. I wish he were still mine.. He has my heart. I know his rules were just a faulse, he just didn`t want to lose me..I know he`ll come back,it`s just hard to wait. I don`t want to ask him why, because He`s not telling me the answers because he knows it will hurt me.<br />I am a skeleton before him, nothing held back and nothing held in. I could tell him anything and premeditate his respons. I feel safe with him. He truely is my window, and getting to that sill is harder then ever. Love is only real for people who have it. It`s all part of the chain of life, Were born, we grow, we fall in love, were hurt by love, we spwan more life, then we die. Death isn`t to be feared. Embrace it and the struggle will be easier, death can`t be helped, it will happen, so just let it. <br /><br /><br />anyway,I have to go clean, so I`1l up-date more later. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx:602 2006-04-15T05:34:59Z 2006-04-15T05:34:59Z Tech Romance - Her Space Holiday What is Dependent Personality Disorder?<br />Quick Summary:<br />Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. Dependents often remain in abusive relationships. Over-sensitivity to disapproval is common. Dependents often feel helpless and depressed.<br /><br /><br />Symptoms of Dependent Personality Disorder:<br />Difficulty making decisions <br />Feelings of helplessness when alone <br />Suicidal thoughts upon rejection <br />Submissiveness <br />Deeply hurt by mild criticism or disapproval <br />Unable to meet ordinary demands of life <br /><br /><br />Okayyy, the computer just owned me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barely_fazedx:470 2006-04-14T21:41:23Z 2006-04-14T21:41:23Z Let`s get fucked up and die - Motion city Soundtrack This is my first post.<br /><br />I`ll mostly be emo ranting/writing songs or stories in here..<br /><br />so come back later and I`ll have some fun stuff for you to look at. <br /><br />;0)